Crossroads.What Am I Thinking? — By Nicholas on June 10, 2010 at 2:36 AM
Crossroads. I’ve reached yet another crossroad in my life, hmm.
You know.. I still haven’t digested the fact that this is IT, that I’m finally done with studies. Since day one of CAT, I’ve been looking forward to this day every semester as I completed a few sets of papers. Now that I’m finally here… it suddenly gives me that feeling of ‘whats next?’.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to boast about my newfound freedom. Heck I haven’t been THIS free before, not even after my SPM, I immediately started CAT in January mind you. Never ever I was able to enjoy a month long of holidays before, the ‘next’ semester was always occupying whats worth of that 2-3 weeks break (I don’t even call it a holiday) after the finals for each semester.
Not that I’m not finally relieved of it either. I’m totally overjoyed by the fact that I was able to finish the journey on a happy note, and a confident one whatnot, but I shall not be too overconfident as He is able to convert a pass to a fail just as easy as from a fail to a pass, quoted from Pei Yi’s. August 23rd, the day of reckoning. I shall wait patiently then.
I still can’t get used to the idea that my life is gonna change totally in a few months time. I don’t know if you’re supposed to feel all so matured when you join the working world or not, but I still feel the same. I mean, if you were to ask me to begin my career tomorrow, I would still feel the same as of today. So its like, I can’t actually get used to the fact that, I will be working in a few months time. How can time passed so quickly?
I had a chat with Jian Wei in the evening, alot has changed. We’ve changed. We are no longer the teenagers we were so used to be. I’ve changed, for sure. I just feel so.. heavy hearted to leave the old me behind, I just miss the old times you know.
You know initially I viewed Coffeestops as a mere blog, in which I think most of us do too, but over the years, it grew into something much more. I no longer view Coffeestops as a blog, but more of an identity. It is an identity that the 9 of us shared, it is a mark in our personal history that we can relate to others in the future, it is something that belonged.. to us.
As of now, I won’t be able to make guarantees that I will update Coffeestops as frequent as I used to, heck I wasn’t even updating anything till the previous post. I really don’t know what will happen in the future, where I will be working, how busy I will be, but there is always something I will always remember. That, I am an author of Coffeestops.
I really look forward to a day, when we are all successful in our own ways, and then we come together for a gathering. It will be awesome. I am actually looking forward to that Epic Reunion thing Christopher created on Facebook, so you authors who are reading, please do make yourself available! Irna, Wei Ling, Sarven, I really don’t know if you still read Coffeestops or not, since neither of you bothered to comment on my previous post nor did any of you posted anything since Coffeestops 2.0 was introduced, but I just want you all to know, we’re a family.
I shall stop my thoughts here. Wish me luck in my future undertakings! Heh.
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